December 28, 2009
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I hate being an introvert
Shy, reserved, coy, self-conscious, cautious…these words all lead to one adjective that matches me perfectly. I’m an introvert. And I hate every minute of it.
It’s quite odd, because my mom and my brother are both very out there – outgoing, talkative and very popular. But me? I’m a loner (well, with a few close friends), and I rarely ever talk to anyone unless spoken to. On my report card, teachers will have a commentary sounding something like this… “Requires more activeness in class discussions”. Oh, and my mom scolds at me for not being “manly” enough because I rarely talk.
It’s a really hard life. I am almost always taken advantage of. Being so quiet makes people think that I’m easy going, meaning I don’t care about things. I’m not, I just don’t say it out loud because I respect your wishes…but please don’t think it’s an excuse to abuse that freedom.
I’m also sometimes thought of being arrogant. I’m not. Just because I don’t talk to you doesn’t mean I don’t think you’re up to par to have a conversation with – it’s just that I’m unfamiliar with you. Please don’t take my silence a sign of arrogance.
Being an introvert also means I’m not used to being friendly. I answer the questions you ask me, or reply when you talk…and I know that’s all I can do. My personality won’t change because you’re friendly and I do apologize for this ‘coldness’ that you may perceive of me.
These are all common situations where being an introvert just…sucks. So, is anyone out there who’s an introvert and hates it? Or have you coped with it and changed yourself into an extrovert?
