January 3, 2010
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Our Awkward generation.
I’ve noticed that our generation, kids born from 1986 and on could be labeled as the “awkward generation.” We say awkward/strange things, we will sit in the same room and im each other from our computers, we spend hours living computer-generated alternate lives(SIMS, Farmville), we connect better with people on online blogs than face to face, we kiss strangers at the club and sleep with our dates after just one date. We are afraid to commit, afraid to get to know someone because we don’t really want anyone to truly know us.
We have the most up to date information on the newest trends & fashion movements, we have the most advanced cosmetic surgeons to enhance our bellies, butts and boobs and we, as in America, have the most money to feed the world many times over. We have more today than the world has ever had yet we are still so empty and so insecure. We are the awkward, non-committal and soo insecure generation. I think i’ve really been learning a lot about people and their fears. I think this awkwardness stems from being afraid of intimacy. Maybe because the rate of divorce is higher than the rate of marriage (over 50% divorce rate) in the United States, kids these days see failed models of love and marriage and fear the same fate in their lives. Maybe because we’re so rich, we’re paranoid that suitors are out for our money rather than our personalities. And maybe because we’re so cosmetically enhanced, we don’t believe suitors like us for who we are but what we look like. Maybe. All I know is, it seems that everyone around me, many many friends I talk to are afraid to be vulnerable. Be vulnerable… only to be rejected, afraid to reach out…only to be forgotten..
I struggle with these same fears. And my fear to commit and to be intimate leads me to ask myself: “How do i get over these fears?” “What can I do to make it better?” And these questions lead me to the bigger, more important questions that we all must one day ask ourselves: “Why am I here?” “What is the purpose of my life?” “Do I matter?” And to be honest, I’ve been here and there, done this and that to try to make myself happy. I tried everything to be happy. Filling my calendar with many social events, friends guys, partying, drinking, clothes… everything left me feeling even more empty. The only thing that has ever filled me and given me joy was and is knowing that God loves me. Because of God’s perfect love, I have no fear.[1john4:18] And because I know that I am not here living for myself, I am able to let people in and love again. What about you? Are you an awkward generation baby? And how did/do you recover?
